Feeling Emotions Deeply

I don’t know where to begin today, so many thoughts; so many ideas, unsure are any of them actually with substance or simply fleeting.

If 10 days of silent meditation at a Vipassana retreat taught me anything as someone who is obsessed and dependant on writing everything down, it is that the important thoughts will stick around, if you can manage to simply sit, choosing the act of being. It is the mental clutter and turbulence that keep us from connecting to our divine forces. I believe the insights we seek are already within, waiting to be unlocked.

I felt emotions so deeply and mistakenly, labelled myself as emotionally weak, even possibly depressed. I am neither. When I get in that headspace it is easy to fall into a whirl of repetitive yet overwhelming thoughts, as I try to think my way out of it and determine why. Why me? Why do I feel this way?

Stop Numbing. Start Living.

*Trigger Warning – Discussing addiction to various things.

We were all placed on this earth for a reason. Some to be a parent, others to set up a not for profit to help those living without a home or with a chronic illness, others to write fantasy novels bringing people joy or self development books. Along the way we lose ourselves and through the obstacles and trials we turn towards methods of numbing ourselves, a means of escapism, taking us off our path to connecting with and becoming our higher selves.

How do we numb ourselves? Everyone uses different methods over a lifetime so I’ll be honest and talk about my own journey.